God has always been good, and has always been there. The other day I heard someone say, something I often hear from those who walk with the Lord, “I’m never going back” – (back to the old way of living). I too have said this, and although I may make mistakes, I know that I am never going back.
I was reading a Psalm of David. David is known as the one after God’s own heart. David was close with God, and he felt the love of God in his life. But David did go back to feeding his sinful nature, and he made some terrible choices. His sin was heavy, and perhaps from the conviction and separation came this prayer of repentance – Psalms 51. I’d encourage you to read the chapter below, but for the moment I want to take a look at these four verses of Chapter 51:
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways, so that sinners will turn back to you.
Although David failed miserably, It sounds like David is saying, “I never want to go back”. I’ve felt it, other Christ followers have felt it. Once you feel the presence of our Lord and are filled with his Holy Spirit – its like you’re home. That incomplete void in your heart is filled. He gives you a joy you’ve never felt before. And the last thing you want to feel is a separation between yourself and God. You’ve now realized, the old way of living and your previous mind set is ancient history. I like how 2 Corinthians 5:17 puts it: “This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!”
Back to David, I believe his sins made him feel a great separation from God. So he makes the best choice any of us can make in that moment, a choice to repent. Through these scriptures David calls out to the Lord in prayer, a passionate prayer at that. And that’s where I will end this post, with Psalms 51.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
18 May it please you to prosper Zion,
to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
in burnt offerings offered whole;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.